I don't mean to sound like a John Cusak movie, but how do you know when to completely let go, look an uncertain situation in the eye that will have a significant and long-lasting impact on your life, and just jump?
Sometimes it's as easy as not thinking too hard and choosing your dreams over your realities. Sometimes your gut tells you, overwhelmingly, to turn left or to turn right.
But what about those other times??
When your gut pushes you one way, only to throw you the opposite, and when your emotions are as clear as pulpy orange juice, that's when the real fear sets in. It's not a fear of jumping or a fear of not jumping; it's a fear of not trusting yourself that freezes you, mid-air, in between the having your feet on the ground and soaring full force toward your landing. Waiting to thaw out and at least plop yourself to one side of the other.
And if you're like me, making decisions on a certain level is cake. The writing is on the wall, you hold fast and firm and you're done. Cool and calm. To the point where people who panic or hesitate are terribly annoying. So to be the exceptionally confident person on the one end and then be the antithesis of that on the other ... let's be honest, it's schizophrenic.
You begin to wish some force bigger than yourself would come along and either weigh you down back to the ground, or pitch you over the edge of the cliff without a parachute. Either way, the decision is done, over, and now it's about dealing with what that means, rather than continuing to stare at either option.
This is me, wishing.
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Well written. As a person who recently made some life altering decisions, I can tell you that if it's something you think about more than often, say, at least once a day, you should probably just do whatever it is you're thinking of doing. I typically find solace in music in these situations, and this song came in at the right time for me. Good luck.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JH-mM0-L08E
"You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? then ask youself the big question: Is that okay? Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change."
ReplyDelete~ Jim Rohn
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade wins in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
~ Mark Twain
"Security is mostlye a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run that outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing"
~ Helen Keller
"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same."
~ Carlos Castaneda
"Far better it is to dare mighty things, to wish glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to take rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in the gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat"
~ Teddy Roosevelt
I do know that song and agree that music is very cathartic. Great quotes too. Appreciated greatly.
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